In Searching Singularity

The Singularity as a descriptive term has been used throughout science in (e.g.) the following contexts:


​The point in time where technology overtakes civilisation  ​https://singularityhub.com 
A University  https://su.org/ 
The centre of a black hole www.physicsoftheuniverse.com 
The Stargate (my favourite) :) Stargate_(device) 
The Individual ​https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/singularity 

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The last one, topping the list in dictionary definitions, is of major interest here, for we are searching our singularity as we go through life - recently my own quest has come up against some interesting factors in other quests, hence the creation of this post.

The premise of Quantumology takes the cutting edge of science and applies the Occam's razor it provides to the swathe of human conditions, paring the fuzzy, energetic mass of singular characteristics into a shape that makes sense of who we are. As individuals, of course, there is always the challenge of individualism in terms of speed and position, which the Uncertainty Principle certainly takes care of. However, one of the factors to come to light in recent times is the existence of a form which provides a mirror surface in which to view yourself. This form is known as 'twinflame' and its importance hasn't finished with me yet. The end of its era is getting closer, mind you, so I'm looking forward to eventual spaghettification.

Twinflame relationships are widely exposed on Facebook groups and you can find a reasonably unfluffy definition here. 
Although I didn't get to assimilate the real-time existence of my 35-year old TF relationship until relatively recently, it does make sense that at some point in time, you get to assimilate the kind of information that you just can't do without. You get to determine what it is that's made you veer off in certain directions through life and what kind of fuel was behind the trajectory. How you discover this information is of course up to you, or down to you, depending on which quark you're talking to at the time, and I'm not suggesting that TF is the only way to gain it, not by a long way. No single thing, event or person defines the shape of our existence. Everyone has their own track to follow and everyone has varying views on whether we follow it, or it follows us. (Free will creates a lot of conflicting concepts and I'm not at all sure it applies to the greater definition of reality.) In singular form, we might feel as if we have free will, but in the scope of bigger pictures it seems unlikely that we choose the course of history any more than we choose the mechanics of the solar system.

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Your quarks (and mine) are changing all the time from one pattern to another, shifting their existence according to - what? We have no idea of the force behind oscillation, no clue as to what drives it or why it happens as it does. We know, however, that we feel different things at different times and as we go through the events of life, we grow and develop our own perception of a truth that makes sense to us, we find ourselves leaning towards a suitable belief system and we come to rely on the most reliable of concepts according to their relevance. A concept relevant to one person is rubbish to another.
​For example, here is the classical description of oscillation, the back and forth movement of a standard current or waveform. And here is Fermilab's description of neutrino/quark oscillation "for the public", as they put it (which is way more easily digestible than this one.) 

You'll see from the two definitions that they are describing almost the same phenomenon, but not quite. For classical oscillation takes place on a times-two basis, that is to say, up and down or side to side, while quantum oscillation has three phases to choose from in both neutrino and quark applications. This means that you can't predict what state you're going to be in next, although the likelihood is that it will have something to do with your state of mind at the time. Unlike a swing, when you can predict that if it is up then it will come down in a minute before it goes up again, with the fundamental building blocks of existence you have no such predictable parameter to follow. A charm quark is not necessarily going to become a truth quark (I can't be doing with the "top" and "bottom" cop-out sh*t that physicists dreamed up to get them out of the original quark namings which clearly came from baseline intuition) and a muon neutrino won't by default turn into a tau. So we have a situation wherein we are going to be whatever we are going to be next which doesn't have a Yaxley switch attached to it - there is no standard sequence, no set pattern to adhere to, nothing to say that you will be this or you will do that in any particular way at any particular time. However, you and me and everyone else do have a common goal, which is to lead a life that feels right and do the very best we can with what we have.

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Searching our own singularity is, in the modern world, a hard task - if ever it was any easier, which of course we've no way of telling. Duty bound to find answers that make sense to us, we will continue to search ourselves for the clues which tell us who we are. My TF's last words in anything like civilised conversation were, "Who am I, Kath?" to which my unfeeling retort was possibly inappropriate, but they do say we get what we deserve and I hadn't learned then what I know now.

What I have learned - among other things - is that you need to trust the flow of life if you're going to get along with it. I've been as guilty as the next person of fighting every step of the way, beating myself up for perceived mistakes and screaming at the nowhere I appeared to have found myself arriving at. Whatever mirror system you're working on, it's a trick of the light waiting to be determined - don't imagine that anything outside of your singularity will save you from the work. Celebrities everywhere are coming out with declarations of mental problems and medication, so money obviously isn't the answer to anyone's prayers. Nor, clearly, does fame trip the light fantastic in the long run. That relationship - whatever form it takes... that love, whatever that is.... isn't going to save you either, for it's not someone else's job to clarify your singularity. Your TF - if you've found yourself caught up with one - won't be like you in any recognisable sense, only you (the two of you) will know in what context the mirror applies. Whether you're on your own, living with a soulmate in contentment or with someone you wish you weren't living with, seeing someone now and then or just about to get married, the singularity rule stands firm. You have to find yourself within your own self, and the quest takes any number of oscillations and any amount of time but even then, time itself is not a linear thing, it's something we ride, the change made can happen in a nanosecond and its effects reverberate everywhere, even to parts of the cosmos we can't know about, because the Universe is a big place, and we are quantum units, very small, very insignificant, but very important in the crucial process of acquiring self-knowledge, which is what the Universe is all about.

We're not a destination. We're a journey to the centre of ourselves.

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